I feel my eyes have been opened for the very first time.

Hi my name is Rachel and my son is gifted and has SPD. This has not been an easy ride to say the least, I've spent most of this journey angry and feeling helpless. I know now looking back I've played the roll of a victim. I don't know if anyone can relate to what my husband, daughter, and I have witness but it breaks my hart to see my son go through such aggression. I didn't understand why my son was so afraid of loud sounds or why he started before the age of one getting in trouble for hitting, kicking, biting, screaming, and doing the opposite of what he was told. Afraid I was going to receive a call saying they couldn't watch my son at daycare anymore. Feeling guilty leaving him with someone beside myself. I let this behavior control my life making me feel isolated and cut off from having a so called normal life. Saying this, I can't believe I've been so blind to what is right in front of me. He is my life, I am his mother, and if I can't be his voice who will? So what I thought I wanted is not the same anymore I know it is by no accident he is my son. Though I can't change the past I can and will make a difference now and time to come. Soon my son will have an OT and I look forward to learning more about SPD and watching him grow not afraid he is going to be kicked out of school. Please if you have anything you want to comment on I'm very open and want to find people who can relate to what we are coping with. Thank you for taking the time to read my blog and I look forward to writing again.